today sucks..

dno where to begin.. just to share in this blog of mine,that today ive been feeling like shit.. i cant explain much, coz it just hurts like hell.. i just feel very dissapointed and betrayed(if thats the word).. i never thought for once,that a friend could actually hurt the other friend really badly.. like shit+hell badly.. when we experienced this kinda feeling,then we know just how much it hurts.. so,i totally believe in the saying "experience is the best teacher".. it teached me so much,that im afraid that ill be a different 'Aeisyah than i am rite now.. i am afraid that i might just stop and switch to being someone else rather than myself.. i might not be too friendly anymore, and i might not trust guys anymore, i might not want to have any other friends than my high school friends anymore, i might just be alone until the day i die..(not that i am NOT alone rite now,still am).. but ill just wish them all the happiness in the world..~