need to xpress it!

omg! i seriously need to say this out loud but just cant find the perfect place to do it! but then,i remembered! fu*k! i have a freaking blog for god sake! hahahah..

ok,so i have decided to finally open up my precious little sweetie heart to him, and he's just like, NOT DOING ANYTHING! BULLs#it!

i mean,hello! im opening up to u now,do something about it,or else it would just be the same like we were never friends in the 1st place!! y izit so hard for him to man up and do ANYTHING to win me back! but then,i never really wanted him in the 1st place too. to me, he is just someone. . . . . omfg! i cant even say he is wat to me! y did i ever let myself be in this position??? mereng btol!!!

another situation would be, there's this guy. i absolutely feel comfortable with,and apparently he is the jerks' bestfriend!! hah! always a catch! i finally found someone who i can tell absolutely anything and he happens to be the bestfriend of that jerk! and i cant never tell him how i feel,coz i dont think he feels the same way bout me. he used to have this gorgeous EX-gf, but it didnt work out,obviously. but the main point was, she is gorgeous! and me??.. im just an ugly duckling.. but in the ugly duckling story, the ugly duckling finally turn into a beautiful swan, but me?.. im just gonna be the same! huhuhuuhu.. this hurts too much! i cant deal with this!!

i dno..

i simply just cant handle this..

hmmmm.. :(